Day 13 - how do you think others see you?

I have realised that because of my upcoming trip, I'm going to have to rush through this challenge in order to complete it in time!

Oh well!

How do I think others see me?

Firstly, I make a point of not wondering how others see me.

To do so is futile, it can be upsetting and it makes you strive to be someone you are not.

How would I like people to see me?

Well I would like people to see me as me.

A fun loving person who will do her hardest to help those she cares for.

A strong person who has been through enough grief to realise that life is too short to be afraid.

Loyal, dedicated to those I care about and discreet when necessary.

I also hope they see someone who does not tolerate bullshit.

Or rudeness

Or any kind of prejudice.

I hope people see me as tolerant.

Once people don't purposely hurt others (I appreciate that sometimes people get hurt unintentionally), I like them.

I don't care about race, creed or sexuality.

If we were all the same we would be incredibly boring.

What is inside is what is important.

The conscience is what is important.

The heart is what is important.

A unbiased, tolerant mind is important.

I hope my friends see this when the see me.

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