Nine days and counting...

I am nine days into my new life as an ex-smoker and strange things are happening.
I walked home from work yesterday.
I did it because it was part of the challenge but I think that I would have done it anyway.
My brain was so fried and I was so frustrated that I needed to walk it off.
Anyhoo...
I arrived home about an hour and a half later,
less stressed, full of the joys of spring and determined to sort out these little issues that I'm having once and for all.
James arrived home pretty soon after me and we did the usual dinner, catch-up things.
We recorded pointless and settled down to watch it around 6. Apparently I made it to round two before I feel asleep. He managed to manoeuver me to my bed around midnight, I woke up briefly at 6 to have a chat with him before he went to work and then I slept again until 11. That is 17 hours (give or take twenty minutes) sleep. Amazing.
I feel super after it.
My mind has cleared, my lungs don't feel so heavy. It is great.
My sinus' are still giving me grief but that is about it.
One thing is for sure. I don't want to do this again.
Here are some pictures from my stroll home...

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Ah November. You have returned.

I woke up this morning with a dullness in my heart that I normally don't have in the morning.
On my mornings allocated to sleep in I resemble a sloth blissfully unaware of life in a cocoon, but on a normal morning I wake up with a bit of a bounce. I start my day with a bit of shower time karaoke. I dance around the bedroom as I get dressed for the day. I have a great time. ( Jeez, as I write this I suddenly appreciate Stuart's morning patience a little bit more! Ha!) Anyway, the point being, despite a very early bed time last night I woke up a wee bit deflated.

Then I remembered that my old nemesis November has returned.
I did a quick calculation. Marguerite would be 32 next week.
32! Being 32 was one of my favourite times.
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